i had wanted to keep a log here for my creation of sebastian. but honestly, he’s the reason why i was absent from updating this neocities for so long! i was busy making HIM and THINGS FOR HIM and then making ANOTHER neocities dedicated to my erotica art of him, which i was ALSO busy making last year!!! (LMFAO...listen, when you have a sexy doll, your mind starts whirring) instead, i will compile a log here of photos & basic month-by-month updates so you can see my progress on making him throughout 2024~

a mixture of grief and indulgence and a year of staring at theodore convince me to finally start studying bjd companies, hybriding bjds, and resin matching. i deduce that the head i love is called the switch waseon, and the body i love is called the dollits dad70.

it begins. for our 10 year anniversary, my partner buys me a clover cut wig from switch, the company that makes the head i’ve been eyeing. later this month i find, miraculously, the head itself for sale through a legitimate seller. the resin color was different than i initially imaged, and this spurs me to create a new OC for the doll called sebastian (based in part off my fashion dreamer OC)

i am now the owner of a switch waseon.

another miracle, the dollits dad70 goes on a weekend-long flash sale. i preorder it.

the dollits dad70 arrives. though eyeless, sebastian is corporeal.

with only a t-shirt and pair of sweatpants to dress him in, i take to posing him in different poses to test his balance and movement capabilities. i learn so much about physics, balance, & anatomy.

i get sebastian’s first pair of eyes, which are a pretty brown with sparkles. i end up not using these in the end, as i want a smaller iris diameter (things i have learned studying sexyboy bjds)

first outfit pieces come in — flared jeans + platform boots!

immediately make him a cherry necklace & other chain jewelry

third miracle: i get a huge bonus from work. so i go on a crazy spending spree!!

by the end of the month, the nice tailored clothing from freedom teller come in the mail i start going thrifting for kitschy cherry + heart accessories for him~

more jewelry made by me: gold chains & pearl necklace

and, after my friend introduces me to the stateside faceup artist komorebi dolls, I SEND IN HIS HEAD FOR HIS FACEUP!!! henceforth he is headless. lol.

all my sweet friends spoil me with clothes for sebastian on my birthday ♡ so many new clothes!! new shoes!! new accessories!!!

i get my incredibly luxe order from sadol in the mail. i thrift some bracelets that work as necklaces. i start trying out all kinds of outfits.

jewelry i make this month: silver chains & checker bead bracelet (my new favorite pieces! he looks so good in silver!)

endless suffering. waiting for my delayed orders. waiting for his faceup update. missing his head terribly. pain.

AND THEN, AT THE END OF THE MONTH:
HIS FACEUP PROGRESS UPDATE!!!!

MY PASSION IS REIGNITED! i get him some retro camera accessories and get in his HUGE legenddoll order!! get even more orders come in! new eyes from jiaoba98, new clothes from maison de h!

jewelry + accessories i make this month: kitschy rosaries (y2k and emo boy themed), damon albarn bead necklace lol

AND THEN...HIS FINISHED FACEUP PICTURES FROM KOMOREBI DOLLS COMES IN! HE IS THE MOST BEAUTIFUL THING IVE EVER SEEN!!!!!! HE IS SO CLOSE TO BEING COMPLETE AND IN MY HANDS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

absolute agony. he exists, but he is not yet in my hands. i wait. i wait. i wait.

his theodore order comes in after a several month delay

accessories i make this month: leather wrap bracelet, 90s style strap belt from shoelaces (not pictured) and from slick bento box elastic i get at daiso

THEN...FINALLY...HE IS HOME...!!!

SEBASTIAN CEREZA...IS ALIVE!!!!!!!!!

my friend takes beautiful photos of sebastian on the day he arrives.

then for xmas, my friends spoil me with clothes for him. mostly sexy leather pieces.

i make more chain accessories to drape from his belt loops & attach a bunch of cherry charms to everything

endless fun. i take so many photos in so many places. i start building him his own neocities

i am. finally. satisfied.